The wait is over...

AND IT WAS POSITIVE!!!

I was watching my temperature every morning like a hawk. My ovulation day was either cycle day (CD)15 or CD 17. It was hard to tell. So when I tested, I was either 14 days past ovulation (dpo) or 16 dpo. Either I should have been getting my period that day, or I was 2 days late. Because my temperature was high for all of those days, I went with CD15 and assumed I was 16 dpo. I was a little unsure of what my cycle was going to do this time around because I had stopped taking Vitex at the beginning of it.  

I was going to wait to test until I had 18 high temps. In my NFP class, they taught us that 18 is a sign you're pregnant. I was doing my best to wait and be patient. The dollar store had been out of cheap tests for a couple weeks and I took it as a sign to practice patience. 

I couldn't wait. 

In the afternoon on August 28, 2013, I peed on a stick. I watched. I waited. I WAS SHOCKED. I looked the test windows and thought that can't be right. I checked the box, Yes, a + and a - in the windows is a positive. I snapped a picture, then another one. I cried a couple tears from feeling so elated. I waited for 3 HOURS for Husband to get home from work so I could share the amazing news. 

His reaction: "Oh shit!" with the biggest grin on his face. He said later when we were making dinner he knew we were trying and that there was a possibility but couldn't believe it actually happened. Me either huney!

We tried for 3 cycles. The first one, we were travelling and there was a lot of stress right before leaving. The second cycle, there was a lot of work stress including me being put on anti-depressants and sick leave. The third one, I had made the decision to quit my job, mentally checked out and life was going in a new direction. God's timing is perfect as always.

I can't wait to document all the weeks, blessings, frustrations and share this journey with you.

The Two Week Wait

Two weeks is such a short time in our busy lives. In reality, it is. We can accomplish a lot in 2 weeks. That's two weekends to enjoy. 10 days of work. But when you are waiting for those two weeks to end so you can pee on a stick, they are LOOOONNNGGGG!

Charting makes the Two Week Wait (TWW) better and worse at the same time. Every day I get another high temperature after ovulation, I do a little skip for joy. Another day closer. It also makes it worse. You have an exact date of when you can test and when you are "late". When you know what day past ovulation you are, it makes the weeks longer. Plus you are used to charting all your symptoms. The worst part is that PMS and pregnancy share a lot of the same signs. Frustrating!

The new home pregnancy tests say you can test up to 4 days before your expected period. I know exactly when that is! But do you really want to spend $20+ on a test that may/may not give you an accurate result, when a missed period will tell you pretty much everything you need to know? I thought so last cycle. Husband thought it was too early, and it was.

We ended up not conceiving last cycle, and that's ok. God's timing wasn't right for us. There was a lot going on stress wise and I'm not surprised it didn't happen. Sad at seeing a Big Fat Negative (BFN) but also felt a little relief that we get to try again. This time is special and bringing us closer together as a couple.

Having been the crazy TWW lady that analysed every single "symptom" and used up 3 home pregnancy tests, I feel like this time around I'm more relaxed. I have faith that it will either happen, or won't. Either way, it's the divine plan.

Does me being more relaxed mean I won't pee on a stick at 12 days past ovulation? Likely not. Who wouldn't want to know as early as possible? Thank you dollar store for having cheap pink dye tests.